A New Beginnging (Part 1)

Reason?
So the reason the title has part 1 in it is because I know there will be more to this blog later on. So yes, it's part 1:) I've titled this blog A New Beginning because I'm getting a new beginning. Not one that's really needed at all but one that's being forced upon me. In a few weeks I'm going to be starting my sophomore year of high school at a completely new school in a completely new town. The last time I made this big of a move was when i was almost a year old so i really don't remember it all that well. And I've never had to be a new student before. The kids I started kindergarten with were the same kids I've been with till now, with some great additions to the group. But still, I was never the kid thrown into a situation where I didn't know a single soul and was forced to make new friend out of fear of being alone. And trust me I will not allow myself to be alone, not even on the first day. It's not hard for me to make new friends, I'm actually quite good at it, when I already have a friend there. Everyone tells me that I will do great. I have a feeling I will too... But I still have those thoughts of doubt. Like what if there isn't the right group of people for me to fit into? Or will I have to deal with bitches that pick on the new girl (which I will NOT allow) But my biggest fear is being alone.

A New Beginning
But I've decided to look at it as a new beginning. A way for me to be exactly who I want to be with no fear.. well there will be a little but I'll try to ignore it :) I'm going to be the girl that I want to be, not afraid to say some of the things that come to mind, not afraid to be a little crazy or weird at times. If I get lost I'm not going to wander around like an idiot. I will get the guts to talk to people. And when I find those guts, I'm going to keep them close at hand :)

The Down Side :(
Even though moving will be a good experience for me, it doesn't feel like it. Mainly because I'm leaving my "comfort zone." I've always been surrounded by people I know and care about. I've had best friends move away but I've never been the friend to leave. I'm leaving people I've been close with my whole life and people I've just gotten close with and wanted to get closer to. I'm leaving my house I've been in since I was four, my best friend who I never want to loose, and a guy I really like. Everything that I've recently gotten is now being ripped away from me.

To Every Down Side There Is An Up Side :)
I'm not dead :) Which means I'm not leaving these things forever, even though a few months without seeing them will feel like forever. But I'm still going to have them and that's all that counts:) And who knows, I might actually really love where I'm moving. Meeting new people will never hurt.. Unless they turn out to be psycho killers.. that might hurt.. So if you have had a similar experience or is facing one soon I'd love to hear about it, it will make me feel less alone:)

But till next time,
Let it always be Summer, your Familiar Stranger :)